i miss him.

this is starting to get hard for me, but i'm not gonna give up. i miss him terribly.

It's back!

i'm moving back to MALDITAH.COM ! i fixed it! with the help of those wonderful people of course. so just visit me there :) byyyyeeee!

I MISS HOME!

my blog home that is! i screwed up my malditah.com WP account, i'm still trying to fix it if i can.. if anyone can help, i would truly appreciate it. myyyy! i'm so frustrated trying to fix it. i've put so much into that WP already! i also have some saved entries that are meant for me to read, some private journals. arrrgghhh. waaaa i hope i can still fix it! i'm so gonna cry if ever i can't get it back to what it was before. waaaaaaaaaaaaa.

so for now, i'll be blogging here. i hope this won't be permanent! :(

*to my multiply contacts, if you're seeing this, that's because all my posts from my blogger account is imported to my multiply blog*

I Belong To Me.

I Belong To Me
Jessica Simpson

Oh yeah

It's not that I dont wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I dont want to have you in my life baby
it's just you gotta know that its got to be right baby
before I open up my heart to you
I dont need somebody to complete me
I complete myslef
nobody has got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
my heart is my posession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
I belong to me

I gota let you know before I let you in baby
that who I am is not about who I am with baby
That don't mean I dont wanna be here with you
I do

I dont need somebody to complete me
I want you to know I give all my love but
I'm not givin' all my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
my heart is my posession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
and if you're gonna love me
you should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yeah

Love don't mean changin who you are to be
who somebody wants you to be
nobody has got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
my heart is my posession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
my heart is my posession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I'm one not half of two,
and if your gonna love me
you should know this baby
I belong to me

Single Life.

i'm loving it but i'm also hating it. do i make sense? i dunno anymore.

i've learned

i’ve been learning a lot of things about life, love, myself, my family, friends & loved ones lately.. from everything that’s been going on, i don’t regret experiencing them coz i’m learning a lot… i’ve learned that:

• you can’t make your world revolve around one person only, because when that person’s gone, it’ll feel like your world crashed on you
• no matter how many arguments you had with your family, no matter how much you hate each other sometimes, they’ll always be there for you & love you, no matter what, no questions asked
• true friends doesn’t have to ask why, they’ll just be there, beside you, your shoulder to cry on or even just to give you company or make you smile
• no matter how much advices you get from everyone, it’s only you, yourself who really knows the right thing for you & what can make you happy
• no matter how wrong your decision could be sometimes, your friends will be there to support you
• friends can be lovers & lovers can be friends, even best of friends
• love isn’t always enough
• if you truly love each other, even if you’re no longer together, the love won’t fade away, it might change, but it won’t be forgotten or it won’t just fade away
• quote “when two people are meant to be together, it doesn’t mean they’re meant to be together NOW“
• quote “Don’t focus on what you lost. but what remains… Don’t focus on the pain,
  but on how the pain is shaping your character. Don’t focus on the failure, but on the great lessons learned.”
• another quote “Loving someone means you only want the best for him. even if it means swallowing the sad reality, that the best just isn’t you.“
• & lastly, before you can truly love someone else, you have to learn to love yourself even more
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